Charlie Sheen went on a ‘suicide run’ after HIV positive diagnosis

Charlie Sheen spiralled out of control after being diagnosed with HIV, admitting 'it was a suicide run'.

Charlie claims his "viral loads became undetectable" very quickly as a result of his medication and he is "kicking this disease's a**." He wrote: "Even though I might have been trying to kill myself, one thing was radically evident: the disease was not." The star paid blackmailers millions to keep his diagnosis a secret because he was "locked in a vacuum of fear." But he added: "I'm claiming back my freedom. The scales of justice will swiftly and righteously re-balance themselves." Charlie now wants to use his celebrity to help others and believes he can continue to lead a normal life. He wrote: "In conclusion, I accept this condition not as a curse or scourge, but rather as an opportunity and a challenge. An opportunity to help others. A challenge to better myself. "Every day, of every month, of every year, countless individuals go to work, man their stations, fulfill their professional obligations with a host of disabilities. Diseases, imperfections, hurdles, detours. These maladies range from lupus to cancer, from paralysis to blindness, from diabetes to obesity. 'Treated,' HIV is no different."