She suffered a near-fatal heroin overdose herself in July 2018
Singer Demi Lovato says she battled with ‘survivor’s guilt’ following the death of Mac Miller.
The 29-year-old was discussing her track, ‘Dead Friends’ from her upcoming album, Holy Fvck, with Apple Music’s Zane Lowe and explained the song was written after watching friends and colleagues, including Miller, die from drug overdoses.
Speaking about the track, the hitmaker said: “I’ve made friends of all ages. I’ve lost friends that were around my age, and those hurt so deeply because we’ve been in the trenches together.
“I had a lot of survivor’s guilt after my overdose because…right after that, Mac Miller died, and it just put everything into perspective for me of, ‘That could have been you, that almost was you, and how are you going to live your life now?’ And it affected me a lot.”
“I had a lot of survivor’s guilt after my overdose because…right after that, Mac Miller died.”
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Miller was found dead by his assistant at his San Fernando Valley home in Los Angeles on 7 September 2018.
A post-mortem examination found that he died from an accidental overdose via a combination of fentanyl, cocaine and alcohol.
Lovato also suffered a near-fatal heroin overdose in July 2018, six weeks before the incident.
She suffered three strokes, a heart attack, and blind spots in her vision in the aftermath of her accidental overdose.
She said: “When they found me, I was turning blue and the doctor said I had five to ten more minutes left. If no one had come in, I wouldn’t be here today.
“Recovery is a lot. And with time, comes trust. It was a learning experience of, ‘OK, people are going to have to learn to trust you again’.
“The only way they can do that is by you proving yourself. Not just talking but taking actions. My family is incredible. Do they worry to this day? Absolutely.
“That’s never going to go away, what I put them through. As a consequence, they ended up suffering.”
Previously Lovato discussed her recovery in her 2021 documentary Dancing with the Devil, and revealed that she relapsed after her near-fatal overdose.
She shared at the time: “I wish I could say that the last night that I touched heroin was the night of my overdose, but it wasn’t. I had just done a week-long intensive trauma retreat.
“The night that I came back from that retreat, I called him [her drug dealer]. I wanted to rewrite his choice of violating me. I wanted it now to be my choice. And he also had something that I wanted, which were drugs.
“I ended up getting high. I thought how did I pick up the same drugs that put me in the hospital? I was mortified at my decisions.”
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